The Coffee Break

Written by shabidi

 

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Dang! Here goes that song again. It kept on playing on my mind during those empty months.

After you go. I can catch up on my reading.

Exactly what I’m doing right now. During those days I’m not in the office I have to read and read just to fill up this empty days. I’m missing him…

After you go. I’ll have a lot more time for sleeping.

I remember those sleepless nights we shared. We used to watch movies, and chat about anything until dawn… Those nights we would just kiss under the stars and talk about our future. It was all too magical. And just like some fairy tales, I lost my prince. But I never had a happy ending. He was gone… and never will he come back.

And when you’re gone, looks like things are gonna be a lot easier. Life will be a breeze you know, I really should be glad. But I’m bluer than blue. Sadder than sad.

The days have been like living in hell. I don’t see any light. I wanted to scream. I wanted to vanish. Why can’t I just have him and have a happy ending?

Pinipilit ko sarili kong pumasok sa trabaho kahit wala ako sa matinong estado ng pag-iisip ngayon. I would rather let my self rot at work than to stay at home and spend the day crying, frustrating over someone who’s gone. Work is toxic, pero mas mabuti ng ganito kesa sa magmukmok sa bahay. I could grab a cup of coffee from my favorite place before I go home.

My favorite coffee place is just 5 minutes away from the office. Born as a coffe lover, nakasanayan ko na ang ganitong routine – grab my fave coffee after work. As much as possible I tried not to stay long at home. Everything at home reminds me of him… I’m going crazy just thinking of him. I was on my favorite spot on the cafe. Looking at the busy workers making their way home. I remembered my self some months ago… When I used to rush my way home just to prepare dinner for him. Just to have a hearty laugh and conversation with him during the meal. That was before…

“Excuse me, hi, do you happen to have someone with you?”

Tumingala ako sa nagsasalita, he was about 5’9″ tall, moreno pero neat tingnan, disente. He’s got this authority in his voice. I sat staring at him for a moment until I realized he was asking me a question.

“Uhmm, no, no. I’m alone.”
“Mind if I share the table with you? Wala na kasing bakanteng upuan eh.”

He pointed out on the cafe, oo nga, ang daming tao. I rarely see this shop full of people. Minsan lang maging crowded tong place na to.

“Yeah, it’s okay. Suit yourself.”

Ngayon lang may stranger na nakisalo ng table sakin. And I don’t know why I can’t say no or if I should just go. I just wanted to be here, in this place. And eventhough I hate to admit it, I wanted to have some company. Or at least talk to someone I don’t know personally. Hindi ko kasi ugaling ipakita ang kahinaan ko sa mga kakilala ko.

“Mukhang malalim yata iniisip mo. I’m sorry for being nosy. But I can’t help noticing you. From the moment I entered the cafe ikaw agad nahagip ng mata ko. You were staring at the people outside. And I bet malamig na yang coffee mo.” He pointed out on the coffee I’m holding. I know I should be annoyed by his presence pero di ko magawa.

“Nah, may mga iniisip lang.” I sighed and let out a timid smile. He smiled back, a powerful and seductive one. I felt my cheeks hot.

“You’re blushing. That’s cute.” He then giggled. I stayed silent, continued staring at the people outside. Masyado syang feeling close, I thought. Nakapangalumbaba ako ng bigla ulit syang magsalita,

“Umuulan na pala. May dala ka bang payong? It is really that hard to make you smile?”

“Which question do you want me to answer first?” I snapped.

“First one.”

“Wala akong dalang payong. Mabigat sa bag.”

“Second question would be next.”

“May iniisip lang ako ngayon. Pasensya na. And it’s not always that I meet a stranger as nosy as you. You haven’t even introduced your self yet.”

“My bad. I’m sorry. I’m jake by the way” habang inaabot nya kamay nya sakin.

“Clarice.” The man have very soft hands. I wonder what he’s doing for a living. And by his looks, sya yung tipong papalit palit na babae. A womanizer, a heart breaker. I continued to speak,

“Hindi naman ako mahirap pangitiin. I take joy in simple things. I appreciate the littlest of things. Just that lately may mga bagay lang na nangyari. Events which are out of my control. I need to go. It’s getting late.” I picked up my coffee and made my way out of the shop.

“But it’s still raining outside. And you don’t even have an unmbrella with you.” I saw the concerned look in his eyes.

“Don’t worry, I can take a cab.Thank you for being concerned.” I walked past him and out of the store. I can feel he was running after me. Nakatayo na ko sa labas ng cafe and was waiting for cab when I heard him speak again,

“Lam mo minsan trip ko din maligo sa ulan. Lalo na pag problemado ako. Pakiramdam ko nawawash-out din yung mga masasamang vibes.” I stared at him. I just want some company for today. It’s obvious this guy is concerned about me. I will let him take me wherever he wanted…just for tonight.

“Hindi ako naliligo sa ulan. Mula pa ng bata ako di na ko pinapayagan ni Mama na maligo sa ulan. Magkakasakit dw ako.” I was intently staring at the rain.

“Nah, you shouldn’t limit your self. It’s nice being carefree. Madami kang matututunan at malalaman. Lika, subukan mo.” He was holding my hand dragging me out of the shade.

“Baliw ka talaga! Mababasa gamit ko.” I was furious. Pero I know hindi naman mangyayari yun dahil waterproof naman ang cover nun sa loob.

“Hahahaha.. Ang cute mo pala pag naiinis.” He was smiling, and all wet. God, seeing that smile gives me goosebumps. His square jaw and perfect white teeth even makes him gorgeous. But I have to admit, standing there on the street with the rain pouring down on me felt good. Kahit malamig ang patak ng ulan nararamdman kong nag-iinit ang katawan ko.

“My place is just near here. Can I invite you for dinner? I will make a good soup.” I asked him. I didn’t even know where those words came from. Bigla nalang lumabas sa bibig ko.

“That was sweet of you. You sure you want to invite a stranger over your place?”

“I won’t mind. Kung isa ka mang psycho or rapist or murderer wala na akong pakialam. I’ve got no reason for living anyway.” I traced the familiar street to my apartment.

“I won’t turn down the offer. Thank you.”

He was standing outside my door, soaking wet. I handed him a towel.

“Magpunas ka muna. Coffee or tea? I know you’re cold.”

“Coffee please. Black but please put extra sugar in it. I want it bitter but with sweetness in it.” He gave me that seductive smile. I was beginning to feel uncomfortable.

“I’ll fix you some coffee bago ko iprepare ang dinner. I have prepared a shirt and shorts on the bathroom. Yun muna gamitin mong bihisan. Feel at home.” I was on my usual boy’s shirt. I love wearing big shirts and pyjamas. I was about to put the coffee on the table when I bumped into him. Nasa likod ko na pala sya ng di ko nalalaman. I bumped hard against his chest at tumapon yung kape sa kamay ko. I dropped the cup.

“Ouch! ugghhh..Ang sakit! Wooo..” Hinihipan ko na ang kamay ko. It was starting to swell.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry I didn’t mean to surprise you. Akin na yang kamay mo. San ang first aid kit mo dito?”

“No, I can handle this. I’m okay.” I went to reach for the small cabinet malapit sa kusina ko. Nahihirapan akong buksan dahil masakit na ang kamay ko.

“Akin na nga. Matigas din ulo mo.” He leaned towards me trying to reach out for the kit. Damn it, this guy is really hot. I can smell him. That masculine scent of him. Naramdaman kong umiinit pisngi ko.

“Teka Clarice di ko maabot eh, uurong lang ako ng konti ha?” Hindi ako nakakibo. Nakatayo lang ako dun all the time. Suddenly ng bigla akong bumalik sa mga nangyayari. I can feel his body on my back. Ramdam ko ang dibdib nya, matipuno. Medyo natatagalan din sya sa pagkuha ng first aid kit dahil nakaharang ako dun. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin. Gusto kong umalis pero di ko magawa. I can feel my body starting to get hot. Parang may unti unting gumagapang na init sa katawan ko. Ang amoy nya, ang init ng katawan nya sa likod ko. I can’t remember the last time a man held me. I miss those nights.

“Ito na. Halika dun sa table gagamutin natin yang paso mo.” He held my hand and examined it. He continued to speak,

“Shit I forgot! Kelangan nga lang pala to itapat sa faucet to keep it cold. Halika.” He lead me to the sink. Nakatayo sya sa likuran ko. And that heat inside me is starting to boil up again.

“You smelled so good. I love that sweet scent of your shampoo.” I can feel my cheeks burning. I know I’m blushing with the words he just said.

“Salamat.” Yun lang ang tanging salita na lumabas sa bibig ko. Then naramdaman kong unti unti nyang nilalapit ang katawan nya sakin. Damn it, I’m burning all over. Hindi ko na maramdaman ang sakit ng paso ko. Wala na kong ibang napapansin kundi ang init ng katawan nyang unti unti ko ng nararamdaman sa likod ko.

“You seemed anxious. Are you feeling cold?” Andun na naman ang bakas ng pag-aalala sa boses nya.

“I am, a bit.”

“Can I hug you? Maybe you will feel a little better.” Hindi nya na hinintay na makasagot pa ko. His two hands covered my body right away. He was smelling my hair. I can feel the warmth of his breath on my ears. Nakikiliti ako sa init ng hininga nya sa tenga ko. I was starting to feel a bulge on my butt. Ramdam na ramdam ko na na tinitigasan na sya.

“You just don’t know how beautiful you are Clarice. And I know there was something that’s making you sad. I wanted to make you happy…even just for tonight.” he whispered.

“Uhhh..Jake. Don’t leave me. Be with me. Even just for tonight.” He was starting to grind. Kinikiskis nya ang pagkalalaki nya sa likod ko. His hands are exploring my tummy.

“Clarice… uhhhhh.. Damn! You’re too damn hot babe. oohhhhhh..” Naglalakbay na ang kamay nya sa dibdib ko. Gently touching my mounds. Rubbing it passionately.

“Uhhhhhh…gosh Jake. aahhhhhh… you’re making me crazy..” He slid his hands inside my shirt. Unstrapping my bra. Hinila nya ko paharap sa kanya.

“Those nipples are hot. Tignan mo, they’re hard baby.” I was blushing. Hindi pa nya ko nahuhubaran ng damit yet bakat na bakat sa shirt ko ang nipples ko. I was burning. Sobrang init ng nararamdaman ko. Pinasok nya ulit kamay nya sa shirt ko. Gosh, his hands felt so warm in my skin. He was rubbing my tummy. Naglalakbay ulit ang kamay nya pataas. Hanggang sa naramdaman kong kinalabit nya ang nipples ko. I gasped,

“Uuhhhmmm…” it was the only thing that came out of my mouth. Nilalaro na ng daliri nya ang nipples ko. He was touching it, at kinukurot nya ng dahan dahan…

“Jake…damn you..uuhhhh…huhhhh..” it has been months since I last felt a man’s touch. Lumapit sya sa mukha ko at hinalikan ako. I loove the way he was kissing me gently… He was sucking my lips without hurting me. He’s not like any other man I met who turns into a beast hen making love. He was gentle. He knows exactly where to touch me. He knows what I want. Ang sarap ng labi nya, malambot, matamis, any woman would go crazy for him. Pinapasok nya dila nya sa bibig ko. He was guiding me, and I obeyed. Alam ko kung anong gusto nyang iparating. We were both touching each other’s tongue. Playing with it, sucking it.

“I don’t want to make love with you here, it’s unappropriate I think. Let me take you to your bed baby.” he whispered sweetly….

salamat ISKO at SA SA PILING NG MGA TORO sa gabi gabing pagbibigay ng inspirasyon at tagaktak ng pawis upang matapos ko ang kuwento. first story ko po ito so any criticisms are welcome. hope you guys could guide me in writing. thank you for reading!